Trying to be a better person
You were born to be real, not to be perfect
Last week we spoke about Perfectionism as Success Criteria and I actually just left by asking myself a ton of questions that I didn't have the answers to. I mostly wanted to get my thoughts out, because this is my platform, so if not here, then where? But since then I've also spend some time trying to answer the questions. And I've been wondering how I become that better person I'm working towards. Mostly for selfish reason, but also for the people around me. So let's talk!
Being positive all the time isn't positive
I'm the kind of person who would like to brush my feeling away and be happy 24/7. But I'm also the kind of person, who wears my feeling on my sleeve. At least that's what Edward and my mom tells me. Or actually just everyone who knows me well. And lately life has really put me to a test when it comes to being sad and dealing with sickness. But rather than crying and talking about it, I try not to until I simply can't keep it in, and then it comes out as if I was a volcano spewing out lava. Toxic, dramatic, and not the best way to deal with my self.
So I'm trying to talk more, and cry more often but in smaller portions. That way I also wont tire myself out and get terribly puffy eyes. Just little by little.
Life still goes by
Although things can be tough, life doesn't stand still. And that's probably a good thing, although I would love to just tear out the next couple of months, stay in Denmark and be with my family.
An example could be a conversation I had with my friend yesterday. I told her how terribly sad I was feeling and that I just couldn't go to sleep. She tried to comfort me. And then she also said something about an idea she had thought of for this blog. Shortly after she apologized, and said she wasn't trying to be inappropriate by changing the subject. But actually, it didn't feel inappropriate to me at all. It was a relief to just think about something else for a second. And she made me smile. So I'm reminding myself to grab the life that still goes by.
Shop my outfit
Shirt - Karen Simonsen
Skirt - COS
Shoes - SheIn
Bag - Zara
Sunglasses - Celine
I'm not the only one who needs love
In a time like this, it's easy to only think about myself and how I feel, but I need to remember to think about my family also. Listen to how they are feeling. Especially listen to my grandmother and how she's feeling. And on top of my grandmother being sick, I also have a dear friend who's being treated for cancer. I have to be there for her. And that's not a question, that's a fact.
I still don't feel like I'm no where near accomplishing being a better me when it comes to these three things, but I'm working on it. It definitely also helps writing it all down and focusing on it in a simpler manner. But I know I can do it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and I need to remember that right now. Life has a funny way of always working out. My grandmother said that to me as late as last night, and I believe her.